I have chosen to block the pain.  Push it away, forget him.  Hopefully forever.  I don't want to think about him anyway.  If I do, it will be thoughts of anger.

I hurt.
How long does it take to get over heartbreak?
Should I be going through this at 32 years old?
I feel like a grown up idiot.

Broken

Who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises

denouement

My words have escaped me.  More when my heart resumes beating.